Things fall apart.
“I am so happy I’m not on social media!” I practically yell it out. We are at our favourite spot drinking and chatting. I’m venting. I cannot believe my luck. In August, I left a life behind, a life I thought would last a lifetime. I don’t remember September. I got so scared by October I printed out a calendar and made a single promise to myself: All I needed to do for the next three months was get through each and every day by any means necessary; by all means necessary. I expected nothing else of myself, and nothing beyond. I put a big fat X when I woke up each morning. It surprised me, and at times delighted me, my sheer will to keep on living. You won’t die from sadness, that’s an important lesson, but unplugged, undistracted, and offline, I had no choice but to face my life head on with a trembling heart and shaky soul until I found heaven again.(more…)